My brother really impacted a lot of my gaming tastes at a young age, primarily because he was the with a computer strong enough to play games. They were also incredibly complicated depending on what he was playing at the time. The next game on the list would probably be considered my very first Role Playing Game (RPG).

I have no trouble saying this game was damn hard for me to play. I was left scratching my head a lot. I didn’t understand the concepts of how to play. In fact, a lot of my memories of playing this game are a complete blur. I don’t even have a clue how I played it. I remember dying a lot. I thought there was a lot of reading, and management of my guys inventory and stuff was always upsetting me. But my brother had given me a game, and I wanted to beat it. I played as all the different classes trying to figure out which one I was best with. Eventually I was a mage, and found it the strongest. I kind of feel like I just kind of wondered around aimlessly, and only managed to do the story kind of by accident. I probably burned a lot of hours playing this game, so I would think I would remember more. However that doesn’t seem to be the case.

Somewhere along the line I actually managed to beat this game. I remember this part pretty clearly. I was playing against the final boss, adrenaline pumping through me like the can of soda next to my mouse. I’m frantically mashing keys and clicking my mouse within an inch of its life. Attack, attack, attack, I told myself. Then BAM. I saw her life bar hit zero. The cutscene started, I do praise this game for its humorous cutscenes, and I leaned back in my chair as though exhaustion had set in. I watched it closely, taking in my victory after many failures. The cutscene is playing out then… CRASH. Yes, the game freaking crashes. Suddenly I’m staring at the desktop, mouth wide open, eyes soulless. I had been robed of my moment. So I fired the game back up, and beat it again from my last save. I cautiously watched the cutscene play out again. Then at the same spot, CRASH. I was devastated. I didn’t know how to fix it, I didn’t know what to do. So I took the disk out of the computer, put it back in the case, and put it on the shelf. I never played Nox again.
I was heartbroken.